So Now What?





So if I let go and give up and do nothing … how’s anything going to change. Lord, I’m not trying to be disrespectful, but, shouldn’t I at least be proactive?

I’ve been asking for help, I’ve been listing the wants, needs, positives, blessings, and frustrations in my life at present. I’m asking. Nothing seems to be happening.

Wait for the Lord. Do I just wait? I’ve been searching through bible verses trying to find answers. None come to mind. I’m not good at waiting.

I’m not good at letting go. I liked the song about giving up. That made more sense to me; but I rarely go down without a fight.

Listen, be still, be quiet, let go, give up, all things I find tremendously hard to do.

Believe, trust, have faith, I thought I did.


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So Now What?

I’ve been writing and researching and reading. I’m doing my homework.

Now I’m talking out loud to You, Lord. I’m at the whining stage.

Your child, me, Your precious flawed little girl, is now clinging to the only thing left. Hope.

I hope I’ll do the right thing; I hope my next step is down the path You would have me follow; I hope I can release any control I think I have on the situation; I hope You’ll catch me before I fall any further.




So Now What?

I’m in the middle of a venture that will most likely keep me where I am.

But where I am is not happy anymore; I don’t expect to be happy in every moment; I’m sixty-two years old and have had all manner of emotions, situations, happenings, celebrations, catastrophes, in my life here in this world. Happy is not a realistic constant.

What is reasonable? I am capable of supporting myself. I have family and friends, not many, but even one is a blessing, right? I have my health. I am retired with little to worry me.

Then how come I’m stressed, sad, numb, and hopeless? I’m whining again, Lord.

I’m whining; I’m complaining; I’m mad; I’m frustrated; I’m tired of the status quo; everything I try to do comes up short. Please send someone, an angel, a spirit, a voice, a sign, something.

It keeps popping into my mind to help someone else, to greet others, meet others, talk with others and bring some happiness into their lives. Is that what You’re trying to say? Is that what I want? Is that what You want for me? Should I stay put and ride out this chapter in my life?




So Now What?

A decision means having the ability to make a choice, hopefully a good choice based on honest, thoughtful, and careful consideration.

Indecision is when no decision seems right, it’s marked by hesitation and being unable to make up your mind.

I’ve been indecisive; I’ve been changing my mind this way and that; I see no clear path ahead.

I’m whining again … I’m whining again … I’m whining.


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So Now What?


James 3:17 The Living Bible 
But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure and full of quiet gentleness. Then it is peace-loving and courteous. It allows discussion and is willing to yield to others; it is full of mercy and good deeds. It is wholehearted and straightforward and sincere.


1 Corinthians 10:13 The Message 
No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.


Proverbs 3:5-6 The Voice 
Place your trust in the Eternal; rely on Him completely;
never depend upon your own ideas and inventions.

Give Him the credit for everything you accomplish,
and He will smooth out and straighten the road that lies ahead.


James 1:5 The Voice 
If you don’t have all the wisdom needed for this journey, then all you have to do is ask God for it; and God will grant all that you need. He gives lavishly and never scolds you for asking.


Jeremiah 29:11 The Voice 
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Eternal, “plans for peace, not evil, to give you a future and hope—never forget that.


Isaiah 30:21 The Voice 
Your ears will hear sweet words behind you: “Go this way. There is your path; this is how you should go,” whenever you must decide whether to turn to the right or the left.


Sometimes you can head off a decision you’ll regret by looking into your heart and finding regret already there. ~Robert Brault,


Indecision becomes decision with time. ~Author Unknown


Everything is something you decide to do, and there is nothing you have to do. ~Denis Waitley


The following song speaks to me right now. Thank You, Lord, for leading me here. Hopefully it will speak to someone else.


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