Is it all up to me?



I don’t think so. Having self-control is and has been an extreme struggle for me all my life. I am bipolar … no excuse … just fact. For years I was unmedicated and unaware of the chemical imbalance within. I only thought I was a “terrible, horrible, no good, very bad person.” That is indeed how I thought of myself. God knew my weakness was a way to get my attention. I was out of control and helpless I thought. God knew better. He placed me in rooms with people from all walks of life that shared their own struggles. It didn’t change me, but I listened. Along the way God put the right people in my life to identify my imbalance and aid me through medication into a world I’d never known … peace. I’m not saying I’m cured. I’m not saying I don’t still struggle. I’m just saying through God’s omnipresence, omnipotence, and omniscience, I live life more balanced, so very thankful, and blessed for the struggle, the pain, and the deliverance. Amen


2 Peter 1:5-7 New International Version 
For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love.

Here is another version of these verses. 

2 Peter 1:5-7 Living Bible 
But to obtain these gifts, you need more than faith; you must also work hard to be good, and even that is not enough. For then you must learn to know God better and discover what he wants you to do. Next, learn to put aside your own desires so that you will become patient and godly, gladly letting God have his way with you. 7 This will make possible the next step, which is for you to enjoy other people and to like them, and finally you will grow to love them deeply.

2 thoughts on “Is it all up to me?”

  1. This is good advice from so long ago ! It’s amazing how the human condition has not changed much !

    Margaret Smith, ABR®, CRS®, GRI®, SRES®
    Coldwell Banker Caine
    Cell & Text: (864) 270-1108

    “Celebrating 40 years in Greenville Real Estate”

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