Not me … couldn’t be!

I don’t get nervous, I make other people nervous; I don’t have accidents, I cause accidents. Two sayings my husband has frequently said about me. I understand each statement to a point. About driving, I can be overly cautious, like at a four-way stop; but who isn’t?  Second guessing other drivers seems to be my downfall; but isn’t that just being polite? I think this is one of the many times I make people nervous; drivers and passengers may sometimes wonder what I am going to do. Sometimes I wonder what I’m going to do; but it usually works out. Point in fact, I have never caused an accident and have never received a ticket … so there!

I do have an embarrassing nervous habit, biting my cuticles until they bleed. Isn’t that cannibalistic? I purposefully hurt myself because I can’t help myself? That sounds crazy! I have tried to paint my nails so that keeping my nails pretty will win out; sometimes it works; sometimes I peel off the polish; sometimes the polish makes my cuticles drier and the problem gets worse. When my hands are working, which is almost all the time, my fingers are too busy to mutilate each other. But one can’t work all the time; hands need rest, too!

Hmmm … Dear Lord, you just SHOUTED at me … I heard you LOUD and CLEAR! I worry with my fingers! Your Word says not to worry. I have never ever thought of this destructive habit as worrying. Oh my, what to do now? I can’t just stop; I’ve tried; what am I worrying about? It could be a million things; but if I don’t know what the cause is, how can I expunge it from my life? Is this a physical manifestation of mental doubts-disbeliefs? Dear Lord, how do I, how can I, how should I let go of worries I didn’t even know I had? I am really at a loss here. I will go to Your Word. Please lead me to help there; please show me myself; please teach me a new way to live with less mental and physical worry.

Thank You, for speaking to me just then, when I didn’t even know I was asking for help. Identifying the core problem-worry-made me see this hurtful habit with new eyes. Thank You and Bless You, Heavenly Father, for knowing me far better than I know myself. Amen

 

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

“Humble yourselves, then, under God’s mighty hand, so that he will lift you up in his own good time. Leave all your worries with him, because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7

“When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Psalm 94:19

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34

But make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves. Luke 21:14

He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalm 91:4

There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place. Deuteronomy 1:31

 

Now some notable quotes.

 

“Worry is like a rocking chair: it gives you something to do but never gets you anywhere”
– Erma Bombeck

“I keep the telephone of my mind open to peace, harmony, health, love and abundance. Then, whenever doubt, anxiety or fear try to call me, they keep getting a busy signal — and soon they’ll forget my number.” ~Edith Armstrong

“You can’t wring your hands and roll up your sleeves at the same time.” ~Pat Schroeder

“For peace of mind, resign as general manager of the universe.” ~Author Unknown

“Worry, doubt, fear and despair are the enemies which slowly bring us down to the ground and turn us to dust before we die.” ~Attributed to Douglas MacArthur

“Don’t let your mind bully your body into believing it must carry the burden of its worries.” Astrid Alaude

 

I wanna lay down my  worries … I do … I really do!

 

Down By The Riverside   A Negro Spiritual

Gonna lay down my sword and shield
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Gonna lay down my sword and shield
Down by the riverside
Ain’t gonna study war no more.

refrain

I ain’t gonna study war no more,
I ain’t gonna study war no more,
Study war no more.
I ain’t gonna study war no more,
I ain’t gonna study war no more,
Study war no more.

Gonna stick my sword in the golden sand;
Down By the riverside
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Gonna stick my sword in the golden sand
Down by the riverside
Gonna study war no more.

refrain

Gonna put on my long white robe;
Down By the riverside
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Gonna put on my long white robe; Down by the riverside
Gonna study war no more.

refrain

Gonna put on my starry crown; Down By the riverside
Down by the riverside
Down by the riverside
Gonna put on my starry crown;
Down by the riverside
Gonna study war no more.

refrain

Gonna put on my golden shoes;
(ETC)
Gonna talk with the Prince of Peace;
(ETC)
Gonna shake hands around the world;
(ETC)

 

2 thoughts on “Not me … couldn’t be!”

  1. Nicely put thoughts … Worries come and go. So will the nails😉Just leaving one thought: Do people ‘make’ another person nervous Or do they ‘get’ nervous?

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